Monthly Archives: May 2012

Meds Week 6

 

 

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Less than 1 week to go and I’ve started new medications. I was instructed to stop my daily injections of Lupron (to stop auto-production of hormones) and to start my Progesterone shots. Progesterone is one of the hormones that Lupron stops, so now I’m getting Progesterone and Estrogen injections to increase the presence of both to ensure a thick uterine lining; Estrogen every three days and Progesterone every day. Which means I am also increasing the number of days per week that I see my mom; now we see each other all 7 days! I’m just not talented enough to reach my lower back/upper buttocks with a syringe and needle to not only inject the hormones but to first draw out the syringe a bit to make sure I hit muscle and not a vein. God bless my mother for administering my daily shots.

Assuming this upcoming embryo transfer works, these injections will continue until at least the 10th week of pregnancy. That’s over 200 needles when you count the needles used to draw the hormones into the syringes AND the needles used to administer them!

The shots aren’t so bad. I ice the area first (we alternate sides each day) so the skin is mostly numb prior to the injection and then use a heating pad after the shot. I barely feel the needle going in and I’ve only bled after one shot! It’s the muscle pain later that’s annoying. Every time I have to sit from a standing position or stand from a sitting position, my little muscles cry out. It’s not a harsh pain, more like when you’re sore after a really  hard strength training day at the gym. Except I don’t get 2 or 3 days in between to let my muscles rest. Just as the strongest part of the pain fades, I’m back to injecting on that side.

So far I’m not feeling any major side effects from the hormones. The only thing I’ve noticed is that estrogen seems to have increased my bust a bit. Not a complaint, really, though I am a bit sore there, too. But if I remember correctly from the last cycle, as the transfer date got closer and closer, I felt “heavy” on the inside. I don’t mean I felt fat, I mean that my abdomen felt full. The women in my surrogate support group say they’ve felt that as well, that it’s just from all the hormones making the uterine lining extra thick. I’m a little surprised I’m not feeling that already, seeing as how my lining is already at 11mm. But I’ve only had 1 shot of the Progesterone so far. We’ll see how I feel on Friday.

This Saturday I’ll get to spend some time with the boys and while we won’t be able to attend worship together, at least they’ll be at the transfer on Sunday! Very excited to see them again this weekend!

Thoughts – May 27, 2012

John 13:34-35; John 15:12-13

Imagining: a friend in my close circle of friends approaches me and pledges to protect me and sacrifice their life for mine. There is nothing I can do or say to my friend to convince them that I don’t want them to give up their life for mine, that my life is not important enough to be worthy of sacrifice. But I can’t convince my friend to see things my way. Nothing I say will change their mind. My friend will lay down their life for me. This friend loves me that much.

What can I do to repay that offer of protection and sacrifice? How can I show my gratitude for this amazing show of love? Is there anything I can do to appropriately acknowledge the gift that I have been given?

Perhaps the only thing I can do to prove myself worthy of this gift, to show that I truly do appreciate this gift is to do my best to show that magnitude of love and devotion to others. To do whatever I can as a person, a human, a mortal to enrich and sustain the lives of others. ALL others. Others of different faiths, different beliefs, different races, different politics.

Because loving only those who are like me, who are the same as me, is not love. True love is not selective. True love is inclusive. True love includes sacrifice. Sacrifice of self and being. You cannot receive love without giving love in return.

If you were told that the only thing you were required to do in your lifetime was to love everyone, would you? Could you? Would you at least try? We may not be capable of perfect love, but we can certainly try.

And perhaps, with enough effort, we can come close to knowing what it is like to offer our lives as a sacrifice for another’s. To want to do anything to protect someone and ensure their safety, here and now. And later.

Push ups

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Update from yesterday’s appointment.

Egg donor took her HCG shot today, so the egg retrieval and fertilization will happen on Tuesday.

My last Lupron shot will be tomorrow (thank goodness; I received a bad batch of needles that hurt and draw blood; that NEVER happened last time) and I start my progesterone on Monday.

The eggs will be 5 days old when we do the transfer on Sunday, June 3rd. Kinda bummed that the boys will not be able to attend church. The fertility office does embryo transfers between 9 and 12, so no matter what the appointment time, worship will be out of the question.

I’m bummed about that aspect, but at least we are pushing up the date and not pushing it out.