Grandpa and Em, Easter 2007

Heartbreak – Part 1

My beloved Grandpa, Ken Worden, left us today. It had been a long (to me) battle with Alzheimer’s and a short battle with an infection. I wasn’t ready. He wasn’t supposed to go first. While he had us fooled for a while with the severity of his Alzheimer’s he was never as “bad” as Grandma. I’m not ready.

This beautiful man (seriously, he was a looker!) has been such a positive influence in my life. Things were never awkward between us as I transitioned from child to teen to adult. He wasn’t just my Grandpa, he was everyone’s Grandpa; friends from school and church knew him as Grandpa and knew they could trust him with anything. His laughter, patience and indulgence in childhood wishes are an example of parenthood and grand-parenthood that anyone can look up to.

I need to write to help get my tears flowing – this whole downhill slide has prepared me for this, but it still hurts my heart – but I’m finding I don’t have the sufficient words at the moment to truly express how this man’s life has made such an impression on me and how big the hole is in my heart.

At least not in coherent sentences. But I do have individual words and phrases.

 

Yahtzee

Leverite (Leave ‘er right there)

Just for the halibut

Praline ice cream

Victor Borge

Bus driver

Handkerchief

Smiles

Hugs

Butt pats

Boysenberry syrup

Body surfing

Nose rings

Deacon

Rock hound

Uno

Green dealer’s visor

Snapdragons

Strawberries

Instant coffee

Rainbow trout

Roses

Orchids

Wheel of Fortune

Upwords

Harmonica

 

And there was always room for you in his lap in his recliner, no matter how big you were.

 

I love you Grandpa.

 

Not the best picture of my Grandpa, but the one I could find really fast and that stuck in my mind.

Grandpa and Em, 2004

Grandpa and Em, Easter 2007

(If any of you have any other words that describe Grandpa, please feel free to share them in comments below.)

7 thoughts on “Heartbreak – Part 1

  1. Carla

    Michelle and Em – Love and hugs to you all – those wonderful memories will keep you going. Your grandpa was our neighbor for over 50 years so we have a lot of wonderful memories, too, as do our children.

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  2. Barbara

    sharer and repairer.

    I remember him fixing something for me. I don’t even remember what or when but that he did.
    You and all of your family are in my thoughts and prayers. Let me know if there is anything I can do for any of you.
    love and hugs.

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  3. Lin

    I’m so sorry for your loss sweets. I know all too well how difficult it is to lose a grandparent you were so close with. It sucks & it hurts but it will get easier with time.

    Just know he’ll always be with you, in your heart & as a guardian angel.
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  4. Sister

    I know exactly what you mean about preparing yourself. I felt rather stupid for crying when we lost him to Alzheimer’s so long ago. And yet, I couldn’t stop. A few more words I feel I need to say:
    Wax paper on slides
    Bolo ties
    UNO
    Skipbo
    Grocery bag handles
    Handmade scooter
    Roller skates

    Love
    Laughter
    Smiles (he certainly had a killer smile)
    Humor
    Hugs

    I love you Sister. I love you so much. And a part of me hates myself for being so far away when all I really want is to be with you and hug you and cry with you. We will get through this together. I love you.

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  5. Becky

    Stone/gem lover
    Jewelry maker
    Grandpa

    And you, yourself mentioned more – laughter, patience, indulgence.
    I was a lucky one who got to know and claim him as grandpa. He was a wonderful man! I’m so sorry for the family’s loss. My heart hurts with yours. I wish i were there to give you a big hug. Love you!

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  6. Mom

    Tears.

    That’s my word.

    You caused mine to start flowing. And Grandpa cried every time he was happy. He cried most often when you or your sister were performing. He was so proud of you – of his whole family. He was an honorable man and a most beloved husband, father, grandfather and great-grandfather.

    Thank you for your beautiful words.

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  7. Kimberly

    I am so sorry my dear. It is so hard to lose loved ones that have helped us become who we are. Many hugs, much love and my condolences.

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