How do I move on?
How do I let go?
How do I convince myself that no amount of begging or pleading or promising will heal the wounds I’ve inflicted?
I’m not ready to give up. I’m not ready to forget. I’m not ready to erase the pictures. I’m not ready to stop saying “I love you.” I’m not ready to not have him in my life.
He is, but I’m not.
How do I stop the pain? How do I push through and accept that this is over? How do I finally listen to him and let go? How do I stop missing our talks, his kiss, his laughter? How do I stop thinking about him?
How do I accept that he doesn’t want me anymore? How do I accept that he doesn’t want to talk to me? How do I accept that nothing I say to him will change his mind?
How do I earn his forgiveness? How do I earn his trust again?
How can I start understanding that I’m not deserving of that? How will I learn to leave him be?
How can I let go?